It's Been a Hectic Week........Here is what you missed lately...........

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!For Halloween this year, I borrowed a "Star Wars" costume for Colton. My co-worker Dianne invited Colton and I over to join her family and friends for trick-or-treating.......and it was great!!

I am not a big fan of Halloween........never have been...........but the joy in my sons eyes, makes it all worth it. This year we were joined by Dianne's neighbor who always goes all out for Halloween. He disguised himself as the grim reaper (yuk)....which scared Colton. I had to convince Colton that he wasn't real, and that he was an actual doctor. By the end of the night.........and after a ton of candy that was collected.......Colton finally warmed up to the grim reaper (only because he wanted to ride in his polaris)..........Happy Halloween Everyone!!!!

Pumpkin Carving...........

On Friday, October 30th..........Colton carved his first pumpkin. Yes, I am a bad mom.....he is 6 years old, and finally carved his first pumpkin. He had a Halloween party at school, which they provided all the Kindergarteners w/ there own pumpkin. Well when we got home, our neighbors were outside carving there pumpkins and they invited Colton over. He had a blast. At first he didn't want to take out the "guk", but once he finally put his hand in..........he thought it was funny. I think we found a new tradition...........thanks Fred & Robin for making tonight a wonderful, memoriable night!!!

October 28, 2009

COLTON'S TURNS 6!!!!

Colton turned 6 today. I took the morning off to spend it with him. We started out the morning going to IHOP for breakfast. I told him he could pick anything off the menu.......didn't realize he wanted a large meal. He ate about 1/2 of it...........Goodness gracious!! He told me he was a big boy now............NOOOOO!!!! After breakfast I took him to school..........who loves going to school on your birthday??? :) But I was able to go back to his school for lunch and eat with him........which he wasted about 3/4 of the meal, because he was not hungry from his BIG BREAKFAST!! After lunch, we celebrated his birthday in his classroom with the cookies, rice krispie treats, and juices I brought in. They sung him Happy Birthday......cha cha cha...........which he loved. Colton is just like his mama...........when the birthday comes around.......it is all about him!!! Had a lovely morning with my big 6 year old!!!! He is growing up too too fast!! Happy Birthday Buddy!!

Birthday Party!!!!

Colton had his 6th year birthday party on Saturday, October 24th. The party was a hit......... We had it at Pump It Up this year......Colton loves that place. There were about 23 kids........but it didn't seem like that at all. I enjoyed spending time w/ family and friends, another great party for my special guy!!

Date night 10/5/09

Do you ever take those opportunities to have date night with your child? If not, you are missing out. Colton and I went out for Mexican food tonight. Nothing biggie, I know........but it was nice to sit across from each other and talk. Even though he is only 5, he is really grown up in my eyes. I love being a mom!!!

Memories.....

I love when I get to spend quality time w/ my son. Colton & I love baseball, if you haven't figured it out by now. We spent the weekend before last at the last Diamondback baseball games. What A Blast!!! Colton was able to run the bases again which he loves to do. Then walk up to the pitcher's mound. Then we met Matt Williams.......Colton's response...who is that mom? Hello...... I guess a soon to be 6 year old wouldn't know who he is. Matt was a good sport though. He took pictures with Colton and his baseball buddies.....as well as autograph his baseball glove. Memories for a lifetime!!! Pictures posted soon............

Misbehaving......

I have been having an emotional week. Colton has been getting in trouble this week for lying to his teacher. I received a phone call on Tuesday from his teacher explaining that Colton received a red (bad day) and she wanted to explain that he will come up with these lies to not get in trouble. It has gotten to the point that she scheduled a meeting for Colton to meet with the Vice Principal.. WHAT!!!....why hasn't this been brought to my attention until now, when it is time for him to go to the Vice Principal???..... I talked (was disappointed/angry) with Colton that night, even tried the disciplining of soap in the mouth for lying. I didn't sleep at all that night, and kept wondering, why my child!! Have I just been in denial, or not seeing it? I have noticed at home that he will not tell me the truth if I asked him if he washed his hands after the bathroom, his response....."Yes", my response...."Colton"..........then his response again..."OK NO". I figured it was a kid thing, nothing biggie. But now I am a little worried. I took Colton to school on Wednesday, let the teacher know that I spoke with Colton, and she was happy I did. Then I went and spoke with the Vice Principal to see what the meeting would be like with Colton. She said she is just going to reiterate that lying isn't nice, and the more you lye, people aren't going to believe you and won't want to be your friend anymore. I was so anxious while talking to her, because I hadn't slept the night before, that I even teared up. She said, you are new at this aren't you? And I said yes.......I just don't want to have that "bad kid" and feel like a failure. She assured me that he is young, and that we all needed to be on the same page. Not a problem.........except when he was picked up from school that day. ANOTHER RED FOR LYING!!!! My heart just broke. I talked to my sister and she said, have you even explained to him what lying means, you have been punishing him, but maybe he just needs to be talked too....... OH, GUILTY FEELING! So I talked to him while I was at my moms, and did the story, The Boy That Cried Wolf. He seemed to understand what I was talking about, and realized that he didn't like Wolves. Skip to this morning, we talked all the way to school, I even made up a song about lying and that it is bad and how ugly you can look by lying, which he liked hearing me sing......so hopefully today will be better. PLEASE!!! Has anyone had problems with there kids lying? I need help teaching him that it isn't OK? All my emotions have been twisted and knotted......and I hate this guilty, bad parent feeling that has come over me. Suggestions????

D-Backs vs. Astros

I took Colton to another Diamondbacks game this past Sunday. The more games we go to together, the more I feel bonded to my son. His love for baseball just amazes me. After the game, he was able to go out on the field and run the bases. He was so excited to be on the field. I love being a mom & experiences all the "small" things in life.........GO D-BACKS!!!

Baby Question......

On my way home from taking Colton to his swimming lesson, he asked, "Mom, can we pretend I have a baby brother and sister"....... This question has come up before, and I usually seem to "ignore" it, but for some reason it hit me hard. Colton has never had that "real family life", and I don't want him to grow up resenting me for it. Would I love to start over..........yes and no.......... Am I scared........definietly. If I do do it again, I want it to be "forever". I mean don't get me wrong, I love my son, I love that I have been his rock and raised him for the past 5+ years, and I wouldn't change being his "only parent" for the world. But sometimes the guilt gets to me. Maybe I am just having an emotional, depressing day.

First Week of Kindergarten.........

Well we made it thru the first week of Kindergarten, or should I say, I made it thru the first week of school.... I had a great experience being able to take time off work this week to take Colton to school & be there every day to pick him up when the bell rang at 3:40. I have never been the type of person who has wanted to be a stay at home mom:

• Being a single mom for over 5 years
• Having to pick up the pieces when I was married, so we would have the funds
• Liking my "Independence", or not wanting someone else to rely on

But all my views on that have changed. I now feel jealous for all the mom's who are able to be there when there children come out of school. I feel like Colton & I bonded even more this week because I was "always there". I guess what I am saying is, for the stay at home mom's out there, always appreciate the time you have with your child, because us mom's that have to work........would give anything to have that time!!!

First Day of Kindergarten

Colton started Kindergarten on Monday. I knew this day was coming, however, the night before I dreaded the fact my little boy was going to the "BIG SCHOOL". As I put Colton to bed the night before, I read him my favorite book, "Love You Forever". As I read the book, it took everything I had not to start crying. But luckily I got threw it, and off to bed we went. The morning came and it went off to a great start. Woke him up, made him breakfast, got him ready, then off to school we went. I wasn't sure who was more nervous, Colton or I. The school was amazing. There were balloons up, music playing, and a lot of smiling teachers out. After a ton of pictures (other moms had my same idea) we finally entered the classroom. The teacher called over all the kids to read, "Twas the night before Kindergarten". Then it was time to say our goodbyes. As I fought back my tears, I noticed my little guy looked sad. I asked him what was wrong, and he said.........."I don't have any friends". Any mom knows that after hearing that, your heart melts, your stomach turns, and all you want to do is cry with him. But I comforted him & reassured him that everything will be ok, and you will make new friends. After leaving the school I cried and that was probably the hardest thing I have had to do so far. I didn't get much work done that day, I just watched the clock and wanted it to be 3pm. I was waiting there when school let out and was so excited to hug all over him. He said the day was good and that he liked his teacher. YIPPEE!!!! Getting thru the first day was very draining to me, but I know that as the days go by, it will become a lot easier for me to see my baby grow up......

Meeting the Teacher

Last night Colton & I went to meet his Kindergarten teacher. It was so cute to walk into a little "kids" classroom & see how everything was put together. The teacher was amazing, she was so nice & came up to us and showed Colton his new table "desk" and had Colton find his name or seat. She had a little gift bag waiting for him which he got so excited to see. Colton lasted about 5 minutes while the teacher was talking to us, he was more interested in walking around the classroom & exploring. While I watched Colton explore the classroom, my heart/body filled up with butterflies as well as excitement to see him. I wasn't sure if Colton would be nervous, but he showed me how independent he truely is. Later that night on the drive home, Colton asked me "when is it going to be tomorrow"? I said, "well after you go to sleep tonight & wake up, it will be tomorrow, why"? He said, "will I go back to Kindergarten tomorrow"? Now I know that I won't have to worry about him going to school, I am more nervous for myself. My little guy is growing up, time to let go of my baby & I am not ready for that!!!!

Where have all the years gone?

My son Colton will be starting Kindergarten on Monday, August 10th. With that being said, I have to question myself....Where have all the years gone? It was like it was yesterday that I found out I was pregnant......only to be 9 months later I gave birth to such a beautiful, precious gift from my Heavenly Father...... and now he will be taking the next step & going to school. I am so thankful for the past 5 and 1/2 years with Colton, he has been my rock through many trying times. He has grown up to be a big boy, very active in sports, very loving (sometimes sassy) little guy. I have a lot of emotions with him growing up so fast, I want to turn back the hands of time & keep him as my little baby. No matter where the time goes, he will always be my baby!!!

Getting Started!!

So I have debating for a while on weither or not I was going to start blogging.......and I decided it was time. I am really bad about journaling, keeping friends posted on certain events, and sometimes with the joys of being a mom, I am so forgetful. I figured that this will be a better way to keep everyone updated!!

Welcome to my blog!!!!